Rick Hulett: Blog

That's what I'm thinking. You have to fight decay. Not just tooth decay, but all decay. It's inevitable and you'll lose, but still you have to fight it. Because, really what else is there? There's just decay if you don't fight it. You have to make a choice. You have to try to make order out of the chaos because really there is no other option. Every instant you're making a choice whether you know it or not. Order vs. chaos. What if by conciously choosing order over chaos, you influence the outcome. Some sort of quantum entanglement process. What if you could do this for longer and longer periods of time and begin to feel some sort of awakening? As if you'd developed a new sense organ. But one, much more subtle than any of the others. Wouldn't that be an incredible thing that if by believing in something strong enough you could actually create what you were believing in? I want to believe that this is possible. I want to believe that it works this way. That if I believe strongly enough it become possible. For me it seems like it did.

It seemed that way, but now there's a chance it's trying to come back. Maybe there's another  fight lurking around the corner here. Am I causing this? It's possible. I admit that I miss the fight. I miss the single minded dedication. But I also feel like the fighter that won the championship but it was such a hard fight that it took something out of him and he's having a hard time getting back in the ring. But really, what choice does he have? What choice do I have? What choice do any of us have? But to fight decay.